Fifteen feet, just fifteen meters separating him from the glory. A short walk, a transit that once would have been the least of his concerns, but at that time became a difficult challenge to overcome. He knew by heart, had fully internalized the dynamic of the show began to climb this steep ladder with the agility of a monkey, waving from the platform and then a deep breath, take the first step in a series that would take him over the heads of viewers to the next platform. There was only one rule: never, under any pretext, should look down. The rest is down to the applause and cheers from the respectable, to greet with joy and pride of accomplishment, something I had done a hundred or a thousand times and not knowing that night was concerned about way.
Dazed and gripped by anxiety waiting for his turn in the crowded clubhouse clown Amazons and trying not to think about what was at stake. Unfortunately, the feeling of a lump on her chest pressed against him sweaty hands twitched and strained her legs, making them bounce unconsciously. Nobody paid attention, everyone seemed to be too busy, everyone worried about their performance. If only she would say something, if only she looked, perhaps, would be an illusion to face any panic that content. A look or a word as an escape valve, as an emergency exit through which both expel unpleasant feeling, as a solid supportive network structure invisible with which to save his life forever.
remained a few minutes for your number, the number of the little circus star who had bet heavily on him. Ladies and gentlemen, we still have another surprise, even harder still!, Are you prepared? Does anyone of you would be able to walk over the abyss, with death whispering behind his back? No, could not, I do have to confess. Only he can challenge gravity, only he can overcome the vertigo. With you the man without fear, the ice man, one who defies the point, those who cross from one end to the tent, without further their talent and bravery, over a cable of only three inches thick. Want to know who I'm talking about? I'm talking about Eeeeequiiiii-libristaaaaaa. Every night the same tune. Every night forced out and repeat the audacity to confront the serious, to get hold your breath for children and adults. Still did not know why, but something told him this was different. Perhaps, he thought, fear him as a robber assaulted, had thawed the blood of their veins, they discovered something he had always known and never had been arrested, a night like this death could definitely win the game with a foot wrong and that at that now end its history forever. Could never find that person you love, could never have that child to achieve the impossible juggling numbers, getting the ball is suspended in the air, defying every law and every principle, to achieve that magic more real than reality itself.
She had always seemed the most beautiful of the entire company. I admired his ability to stand on one leg and the horse into a trot. Both the performance of her as his balance was an essential part to avoid getting on the floor with the neck match, for his discipline, effort, circus as children, were somehow equal. When she accompanied him to his little restaurant and had dinner with the candlelight, time stopped for him. Never seen her so radiant, so beautiful, her chestnut hair topped by a crown of violets that getting out a shiny look and soft, so close that could be distinguished in its reflection. The evening ended in a caravan of her, his hands slowly separating from him, as if they refused to get rid of all of that carnal bond that had united for a few hours. From that one night something seemed cool, she shied away, and he found a way to be alone with her. Loneliness bleaker settled in his heart and, with it, fear, grief, pain, digging into her womb as invisible daggers.
was time. The entry of the clowns with the fire truck was a sign that was next to act. The show came to an end on a high note. He would rise up as a ghost, haunted by his curse particular, came to the door and waited for the Master of Ceremonies will give way to emotion of the respectable translated into a standing ovation. Greeted the audience, as every night, and came up with the agility of a monkey to the platform. From that moment the die was cast. A chill shivered at the time you take the first step, the most important, however refused to return to the platform and after a short roll could take the next step. A deep silence had settled in the tent, a respectful silence and disturbed, in church or cemetery, and many, even holding their breath for fear that it could make you slip the cable to the man who risked his life to them to experience something different from the routines of their lives. That man was moving mechanically, without thinking about anything, he was about to reach the halfway mark, precisely the most dangerous that brief journey. Just seven meters separating him from the platform, seven feet and would once again achieved recognition of all spectators, seven meters, found herself thinking, would not change anything, that his life would remain the same as always, an ongoing commitment against abyss and nothingness. That thought made him momentarily lose his balance, shaking all and sundry. He did not know, but everyone in the circus: actors, Amazons, clowns, animal trainers, jugglers, were attentive to the next step. His trouble had not gone unnoticed, but it was the first time a member of the company was ill and had never been done anything, the show was all that mattered, the show must go on. She, in the middle of the whole group was surprised crying, I was terrified. Took weeks shy away from our hero, because I had never felt anything like a man. Moreover, since the night of love had felt so strange, he went to visit a doctor. He or she announced she was pregnant. She had not mentioned to anyone, do not know what to do, perhaps, he thought, after so much rudeness he would reject it out of pure spite. Would have an abortion or being a single mother what it meant leaving the world of the circus. Meanwhile, the father of her baby was being played life to the desperate and she did not know what to do. Without thinking what he did, whether it was right or was wrong, she ran to the center stage and shouted his name. He recognized his voice, but was not able to respond, should not look down, there were only 5 meters to reach the final. She climbed the stairs to the platform coming from the same height and asked him to come to her, she loved him, loved him and had not ever loved anyone in the world. Those words shocked the mind and the heart of it, which stopped his way, as if her heart had stopped. For a moment she felt that leaving the forces, which is blurred vision and fainted. But it was only a moment imperceptible to most. A new step will put it back on track. His eyes fixed on her eyes, as if both had been found in the middle of a tunnel or had been recognized in a fog. Three feet, two, one. She greeted him with a hug that caused the most thunderous applause that he had never lived in this little circus. People were mad, shrieking with excitement. They, as if they were alone on an island in heaven who knows, they kissed and promised eternal love. He told her he had never been so scared. She looked at him tenderly and told her not to worry, that she was to hand, would always, sometimes, to the darkest, dawn love.
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